Waiting Casually

The Mrs. and I have been traveling a lot for work recently. We counted it up and for the month of April spent only 14 days together. I’d actually been so busy with travel and writing reviews (it’s review time at work right now) that I hadn’t been able to think too much about it.

I was in the airport last Monday though, and something happened that really made the distance between us really hit home. They announced a delay to our flight over the PA system and I watched as everyone waiting at the gate brought out their cell phone to text or call their loved one to let them know.

I didn’t though. Jen was in later time zone and my text or call would wake her up, so I just stood and watched as everyone else around me made that connection to the one they loved. I even brought my phone out and toyed with it a bit just to create a distraction from thinking about her.

You don’t expect to have feelings like this once you fall in love with someone. It’s almost a fear that you won’t be able to see/hear/touch that person again when you’re separated. It reminded me of the movie The Fountain. There are other movies that capture the feeling of falling in love, and there are others that capture the feeling of emptiness once a loved one is gone, but the power of The Fountain is its ability to capture the desperate, sick-to-your-stomach fear that you experience while in the process of losing your loved one. It’s also a beautiful, beautiful movie that you can buy for about $10 on Amazon. Aronofsky continues to impress.

We’re coming up on our two-year anniversary next month and I only see these feelings getting stronger as time goes on. I suppose we’ll have to have conversations with our bosses about travel pretty soon…